Seeing Through Heaven’s Eyes

This week I had a deep experience with Jesus when I went to Tennessee to help with my elderly parents after my mother fell and broke her leg. She is 90 years old and Daddy is 94. There are not many people my age with both parents still living and healthy, and facing losing them was quickly becoming a possibility. They are both sharp and fairly healthy and have been living alone with just a little help. By the time I got up there she was in rehab and working hard to learn her new skills using only one leg until the other one heals. She has a good attitude and is determined to go home. That was good news, but I arrived with a guarded heart that was prone to remember past struggles I’d had with her instead of seeing through Heaven’s eyes.

Right after the accident, I struggled for a few days not knowing what my role would be with helping them because I live four hours away. I decided that I would go up after my other sister from Texas left to go home. I was somewhat resistant to be gone very long because of my life here at home, the drive, just plain being a homebody, and those difficult issues we all have with being with family too long. So I left with my heart slightly closed, more or less going out of obedience to the Lord.

Upon arriving, I went to the rehab center and saw Mother. My heart was broken to see her so helpless. But fear about the past struggles kept a piece of my heart still closed. I was relieved to see that Daddy was able to do more for himself than we all thought he could. Other family who live there had set up a schedule for different people to stay with him at night and keep the household going and drive him around. As the days passed, I could see that Mother is in a good facility and that they would be taken care of until we see how she is when she comes home.

On the last night I was to be there, God began to work on the rest of my slightly closed heart. I had a connection with Daddy like none I had ever had as an adult. He opened his heart to me and I was barely able to hold it together until I could get to my room and cry. He was so vulnerable and kind and sweet and scared. As I prayed and pondered the whole situation, I realized how tender hearted I am and that keeping my heart closed was not like me, not like the heart that Jesus gave me. The crack widened. The next morning as I was about to leave the rehab center to come home, I could no longer keep back the tears. I saw my mother through Heaven’s eyes and my heart was again flooded with His true love for her in spite of anything she had done in the past or might do in the future. I wanted my last years with her to be open and full of unconditional love. I didn’t want to leave. I went to my car and called Jodi so I could get calm enough to drive. It was time to go home, but I knew it would be easier to come back the next time.

God is the one who worked this out in me. It just kind of happened. Listening to a CD for four hours on my drive up there was partly what He used to work it through. Click here to see CD. Seeing others through God’s eyes changes how we see them—and it changes us. It does not diminish that they have done wrong things or that they have hurt us, but seeing someone as God sees them opens the possibility for His love to pour through us. When His love pours through us, not only do they benefit, but we benefit, too–from being the conduit.

After I was home and had some time to process everything, I saw Jesus kneeling before me—so loving, so proud, so glad to be with me; so glad I wanted to live from the heart that He gave me—a loving, nurturing, bonding, tenderhearted heart like His. His presence was more real than the chair I was sitting on.

NOTE: If you have been badly abused by someone, I am not saying you need to be in a relationship with them. I am talking here about the regular difficulties that we have with others who hurt us and can be difficult to be with sometimes. Always listen to Jesus about those to whom you might open your heart.

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Free Book for Review

I am trying a website called that helps promote indie authors by offering their books free in exchange for an honest review. Prizes are awarded randomly, once a month, to those who download a book, with an additional entry by giving a review.

This month I am offering my devotional book, Living Lessons on Intimacy with Christ. If you like to read small portions of truth to ponder and you desire to grow in intimacy with Jesus, this devotional will move you in that direction.  Check it out for free by downloading to your computer and then putting it onto your kindle or tablet.

If you give an honest review, you will up your chances of winning one of the prizes. You don’t have to wait until you read the whole book to give a review.

Thanks and Blessings, Barbara

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God IS Love

“Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. The one who does not love does not know God for God is love” 1 John 4: 7-8

This verse teaches us a wonderful truth—“God is love.” God does not have love or just do love, He is love; love is His essence; love is all that He is and all that can come forth from Him. This is a huge concept, often misunderstood. All over the world people mistakenly see God as uncaring, wrathful, a punisher; someone to fear. It’s common for people to mistake their own consequences as punishment, and think God is angry. Such views of God are evidence that many do not really know Him and are projecting human attributes onto Him. God cannot do anything but love. (From Living Lessons on Intimacy with Christ)

As humans, our perspective on situations is so limited. We get tangled up in questions such as, “Why does a good God let bad things happen?” We focus on our “whys” and argue over how God fits into the situations of life instead of realizing that He is love and knows what is best far beyond what we can see or know. It seems easier to argue and/or refuse to give in to God than to cry out to Him for comfort and trust Him. A better question to Him is, “What do You want me to know about (what is going on)?

I learned to take God at His word—that He is love—as various difficulties came into my life. Three of my children had major illnesses when they were small—one with a heart condition, two with seizures. I had to trust God for food, milk, bills and income while in the ministry. I went through a divorce. I went through a very painful move from the place I called home. During any of these painful events it would have been easy to believe God is not love because the circumstances, and sometimes the relationships, felt painful at the time, but with each I chose to believe that He knows best and can do nothing that is not love. I have never found God lacking in comfort or provision. He has never let me down; He has never left me.

If you can get hold of how truly loving God is, intimacy will flourish because you will see that He is all-powerful, all-loving and in control of all that comes into your life—He cares more than you can even imagine. (We will look at this concept further in the next chapter.) When we are born of God and know His love, we are able to love others with that kind of love.

Application: There is nothing you can do to make God love you more; there is nothing you can do to make God love you less. There is no good deed that can get God to love you more than He already does; there is no sin that you can do that will keep, or stop, God from loving you. Hold on to that when you are not sure about circumstances in your life! He knows best.

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Musings on the Son of God Movie

Maybe you don’t like movies, but seeing visuals about Biblical times stirs me. I like watching what it might have been like to see and touch Jesus, while at the same time remembering that what I have today is even better–He is always present and lives in me and I am never alone. Still it’s inspiring to get lost in a good film that depicts what that time might have looked like. This morning after seeing the movie last night, I wrote to Jesus in my journal:

Lord, I was moved to see how You acted like Yourself in all that agony. You turned to the Father and chose His will; You endured; (You told Mary not to fear.); You talked to the thief; You cared about John and Mary, and later you returned to joy with Peter. (You showed compassion to Judas.) I don’t want to take lightly the physical pain. I’m so grateful and I know You would have endured just for me. Words fail me. My sins and failures are forgiven and I humbly thank You.

Seeing the Pharisees and Caiaphas reminded me of how blessed we are to be free from the Law. Being under the Law blinds–one can only see the rules and know the fear of missing one of them. It’s so much better to be motivated by Your love and grace. That doesn’t excuse sin, but it surely does make it easier to come to You when we know how much You love us.

I didn’t cry until the end after “You” told the disciples to go and tell the world all that had happened, and then “You” disappeared. It was when “Peter” said, “Let’s go! We have a lot of work to do!” My heart was so touched that they did just that–that got up and went out to spread the word about all they had seen and heard and knew. What if they had just sat around talking about how cool all the miracles were and how You came back to life? I wouldn’t know You. In that moment I was so grateful that they went out to change the world because 2000 years later I can know You.

The movie shows well how You are who You say You are. My prayer is that people seeing it will realize the depths of Your love, the breadth of Your caring, the height of what it means to walk moment by moment with You in Your grace, and how impossible it is to be quiet about You and all You have done for us.

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Musings on the Whining Israelites

I’ve been reading in Numbers this week and remembering how much the children of Israel complained and whined after leaving Egypt. In just 4 chapters, (11-14) these ungrateful grumblers complained about what God gave them to eat, Moses’ authority, the giants in the Promised Land, and their consequence that would not allow them to enter the new land. I want to learn from these chapters. I don’t want to grumble and whine about the circumstances that come my way. I want to remember God’s faithfulness and provision and keep trusting Him, because He has certainly proven Himself trustworthy.

When Jesus came and died for us, He took God’s wrath upon Himself. We don’t have to look at our circumstances as punishment and fear that God will open up the ground and swallow us. We don’t have to eat quail until it comes out our nostrils; we don’t get leprosy for a week, and our children don’t have to wander in the wilderness for forty years. We are free.

But all too often we can find ourselves grumbling and whining instead of trusting our Father who loves us so much. Does the death and life of Jesus make no difference? Is there a way to lessen our complaining? If so, what helps? As I pondered how easy it is to judge the whining Israelites and then turn around and act just like them, these questions came to my mind. I had a few thoughts that might help.

First it occurred to me that the better we know God, the easier it is to trust Him. Seeking intimacy with Him when circumstances are going well helps me to remember Him when things are hard or sad. Knowing who He is and what is like Him is easily found in the Scriptures. Talking to and listening to Him in prayer encourage intimacy. The God of the Israelites dwelt in a tent; today He lives in us. We are never alone, never forsaken. The more we focus on God and how much He loves us, the easier it will be to remember to turn to Him when we feel like grumbling. We may act like the Israelites, but we don’t have to.

I had another thought about why it’s so easy to complain instead of remembering all He has done. We can’t remember in our own strength and self-effort. It’s helpful to ask Him to prompt us and remind us to turn to Him. We then have a choice. If what’s going on is very painful, we might need to ask for human help and let someone lend their support. That’s OK, too. The more we practice turning to Him, the easier it will be to remember His love and provision instead of grumbling.

As we read about the whining Israelites, we notice a difference in their actions and those of Moses. Moses turned to the LORD most every time. The people complained, sometimes immediately after God had just done a miracle. Moses knew Him better and had had lots of practice depending on God and finding Him faithful. Moses interacted with God—the people had mediators. We have it better than Moses did—we have Jesus living in us and we can interact with Him anytime, anywhere.

In summary, I want to encourage us to practice turning to Jesus about everything. If we want to know Him, we will. When we remember to look at His loving provision, His kindness, all He has done for us, complaining and whining will fade away.

“Therefore I shall always be ready to remind you of these things, even though you already know them, and have been established in the truth which is present with you.” 2Peter 1:12

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Book Review: I’ll Cross the River

Reading is one of my favorite things to do. I read my Bible, library books, Kindle books, study books, Readers’ Digest, old books I’ve already read–even cereal boxes. I love to read and I read every day. Last week I found one of those free ebook sites and I clicked on a book that is really worth recommending, not knowing it was a Christian book until I started reading it. I’ll Cross the River, by Hope Flinchbaugh, tells the story of two women–one in North Korea, the other in China. It’s based on truth although the people are fictional. I was very shocked to read how terrible life is in North Korea. People are dying of starvation every day as a result of the government’s policies. They are brainwashed to believe that they have it better than anyone else in the world.  Some learn otherwise and try to escape into China. If caught, they are sent back to be tortured and killed. The North Korean woman decides to escape across the river with her baby and son. She has been told there are people in China who will help hide her. These helpers who risk being sent to prison are part of the underground Church in China.

The other main character is a young Chinese woman who sets out to take the Good News of Jesus to remote villages. Reading about her faith touched me deeply. She left on her dangerous journey, on foot, camping unless someone gave her shelter, and she left with no plan except the rough map that showed her how to find the villages. She literally had to trust God for every step, for every bite of food, for direction, for who to trust, and for what to say to those she met.  Speaking of “the God who loves” could land her back in prison where she had already served three years for telling her classmates about Jesus.  Regardless of what was going on, she and her traveling companion kept saying to each other, “We must pray.” Their dependence on God is inspiring and humbling.

As you can already imagine, these two women’s lives cross, but I won’t give away the ending as to how.  If you like to read, I hope you will check out this book. It will challenge you to follow the Lord unreservedly.  If the Lord brings it to mind, pray for our oppressed brothers and sisters who suffer beyond what we can even imagine.

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Musings on Quilting Madness

For many years I’ve been making quilts with the number most likely over 70 by now. The kinds of patterns I use are very simple and can be finished by machine in a day or two. Most of the time I make them out of scraps I already have, though some have been planned and fabric purchased.

Recently while visiting my sister, Jackie, I saw one of her most recent quilts and it was beautiful. Unlike me she occasionally hand quilts her beauties. She’s also more “crafty” than I am and has a mind that can do mathematics. I decided to copy this beautiful quilt of hers which was a pattern unlike any I have ever tried. (In quilting circles it’s called “on point,” and the squares are on the diagonal.) Remember, my quilts are simple; I make up my own patterns.

I gathered my scraps, cut out the squares and got ready to put it together. I had a picture of Jackie’s quilt but I could not figure it out. I had to call her several times as my un-mathematical brain tried to “get” what I had to do to make this quilt as a diagonal. Finally, I got part of it and began my rows from the corner. At the third row, I was stumped again. This time I had to face-time Jackie to figure out what I could not get because I was looking from a totally new perspective. I could not see a rectangle or where the next corner would be. After much deliberation, we finally figured out what my next steps were and the pattern emerged.

As I worked on this quilt, I mused on what it felt like when I could not “see” what it was going to look like or figure out how it would become a rectangle. That’s how we feel sometimes when God is trying to teach us something new. The brain feels off kilter, like a diagonal, when we are used to rectangles. Jackie was patient, kind, and helpful as she coached me along to see from another perspective that she already understood–answering questions and repeating instructions until I could see a bit at a time.

Isn’t our Heavenly Father so like that! He knows well what we don’t know. His perspective can see all directions and He is never thrown off kilter when we feel like our world has turned upside down. He is patient as we walk, stumble, fall, and try again. He does not condemn us when we struggle and can’t quite see that new perspective.

This quilt was the most difficult I’ve made. I ripped out and started over many places before I figured it out. I talked with a coach who understood the pattern. I persevered. That’s how it is when we grow–it’s frustrating and often painful. But just like this is one of the prettiest, and the most unusual quilt I’ve made, when we learn that new thing that God wants us to experience in life, the gain is worth the pain.

Pinned and ready to quilt. Are you listening to your Coach and persevering in spite of frustration and off-kilter perspectives?  He wants to make something beautiful out of what you see only as scraps.


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